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“ X. had spent the largest part of her life
believing that she was someone. In X. defense
it has to be said that she wasn’t the only
one who had been possessed by the thought of
being someone. When X. had finally gotten
to the bottom of things, when she had realised
that she was indeed noone, that she was no
more or less special than anyone else, she had
felt betrayed. Had she not been promised, in
a way, that even if she wasn’t someone now,
that the possibility existed that she could be
someone if she worked at it hard enough?
Had she not been told for years, maybe all
her life, that there were goals to be reached,
success to be achieved, that somewhere fortune
was waiting just for her? At first X. felt
betrayed, then aggrieved, then surprised. At
last she stopped trying to find her purpose
in life, stopped trying to improve herself,
stopped wanting to be someone. She started
to be noone and felt imperturbable. ”
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